Today has been a major day of processing my life for me with the help of some friends and my hubby.
Simplicity is taking on a whole new level in my brain, and honestly, I am scared to death.
You see, I don't really do well with change and if you know what is happening in my life right now, you realize there is a lot of change happening. If you don't know what I am talking about, go here and here to read more about it.
I am the type of person that keeps my furniture the same from the day I move into my house on. I don't change it. I freak out when there is a software upgrade on my computer and something, even the slightest thing changes, even if it makes it better. I got an iphone over a week ago and I still don't really have the thing figured out. It took me hours and hours to get my address book and calendar fixed. I am still using my palm pilot because I don't have the energy to get everything else set up in it yet. I am pretty sure I have sent multiple texts and left multiple voicemails on the wrong people's phones because I can't quite figure out how to use what is supposed to be one of the most user friendly phones that exists. Don't even get me started about apps. Those, just send me over the edge!
Enough about me. Oh, wait a minute, this whole post is about me. So, back to the challenge.
God has expanded this challenge for me today. He has made it very clear. I either choose to obey or disobey. I desire to obey, and I will, but this one is going to really stretch me. He is calling me to a level of simplicity that will strip me of my identity. That started with Rick's job changing and me no longer being a pastor's wife. I am still processing that one. Now, it goes even deeper. I can't even fully articulate it right here, but I will as I continue to process.
My life is becoming complicated in my brain as I simplify the stuff of it. God is using this to bring me to my knees. I am grateful. I am challenged. I am becoming more of who He has called me to be. Growth involves pain. So, I embrace that pain and say, "Bring it on!" I am not the same person I was 6 months ago, and I suspect I will be saying the same thing 6 months from now.
The journey continues....