This is how I feel today!
I am weary.
I am ready for the weekend. Oh, wait, we have a soccer game, football game, a football party, dinner with friends, church, family pics and life group. (All things I am looking forward to)
Okay, then, I am ready for sports to be over. Oh, wait, the day after sports end, Rick will be leaving for a 14-day trip to Africa.
Okay, then, I am ready for him to get back from Africa. Then we can rest. Oh, wait, then we have Thanksgiving.
Okay, then, I am ready for Thanksgiving to be over. Oh, wait, then it is is December and we have school concerts, open houses, Christmas parties, Christmas shopping, Isaiah's Birthday, CHRISTMAS!!
I could go on and on. Such is my life. I have decided that for my mental stability, I need to approach life differently.
I tend to live with this mentality that says, "When I get this project done or this date passes, I will be able to take a break and relax." Guess what I have realized?
THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!
I live a busy life. I have 6 children. We are in ministry. We have a non-profit organization. Life is not going to slow down for YEARS.
I think if I can wrap my mind around that I will live with a lot less frustration.
I have made one adjustment over the last 3 years since we brought Isaiah and Laila home. I have to tackle one day at a time, one project at a time. I cannot look too far ahead. I will be buried by the weight of all that has to be done.
I need to take that one step further. I have to get rid of the mentality that life is going to slow down. I have to embrace the busyness that is my life. I need to live fully where I am knowing that tomorrow will bring new projects to complete.
If I had to guess, I think that maybe this is how God wants all of us to live anyway. Trusting him each day. Not worrying about what is to come or trying to plan out every detail ahead of time. It reminds me of Matthew 6:25-34. This passage is a good reminder to me today to live in the moment I have been given and trust God with the days to come.
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."