They are August, December, and MAY!!
Throughout the month of May, I have to take lots of cleansing breaths.
Sports and piano are finishing up. This means final practices, games, tournaments, recitals and end-of- the season parties. We are currently finishing Cody's basketball season, Lauren's soccer season, and Abby's piano lessons.
The month of May is ridiculous at school. We have end-of-the year projects, field trips, field days, Teacher Appreciation Week, concerts, finals, end-of-the year parties, banquets, a dinner/dance, and an Elitches trip.
Rick has been gone a lot. In the span of a month, he has 3 work retreats. In addition, there have been many late night meetings. When he is home, he is so exhausted, he just needs a break. We are definitely counting the days until his vacation in June.
I am also in the process of sorting through all of our clothes and decluttering our house. What a job that is!! This feels like a neverending job.
We all have these times when we just don't know how it is all going to get done. I am taking it one event at a time.
I suspect this is really how God wants us to live anyway. Trusting Him in each minute. Not planning every detail out. Being open to changing our plans as He leads.
Honestly, no matter how much I accomplish in a day, I still feel defeated because there is so much left to do. Everywhere I look in my house, I see work that needs to be done. My checklist is a. mile. long. Splatters on the walls, a cluttered drawer (actually many cluttered drawers), a pile of random socks that need matches, crumbs on the floor, piles of random papers, messes under beds, groceries that need to be bought, I could go on and on.
The May 6 "Jesus Calling" devotional centered me. It brought everything into focus for me.
Do not search for security in the world you inhabit. You tend to make mental checklists of things you need to do in order to gain control of your life. If only you could check everything off your list, you could relax and be at peace. But the more you work to accomplish that goal, the more things crop up on your list. The harder you try, the more frustrated you become.
There is a better way to find security in this life. Instead of scrutinizing your checklist, focus your attention on My Presence with you. This continual contact with Me will keep you in My Peace. Moreover, I will help you sort out what is important and what is not, what needs to be done now and what does not. Fix your eyes not on what is seen (your circumstances), but what is unseen (My presence).
Okay, God. I get it. Once again, I needed to be reminded to that focusing on Your Presence will bring me Your Peace.