Welcomed Escape

Tomorrow I will be spending the night in a hotel, alone.

I cannot tell you how much excitement flows through my fingers as I type those words.

There could not be a better time for me to escape.

I am at the bottom of the barrel right now, scraping every last bit of strength to make it until this time tomorrow.

I am weary. I am exhausted. I am discouraged. I am overwhelmed.

Who knows what that time will look like?

Heck, I may just sleep the whole time.

I have learned not to plan too much or put too many expectations on myself during these brief getaways.

I don't want to end the time feeling like I have failed to use it adequately. The goal of it is not to accomplish a certain amount or mark items off a list, but to rest, seek, search and reset myself.

So, I will take my Bible, my journal, my ipod, a "learning" book, a "fun" book, and my comfy lounging clothes.

I will do what I feel like doing in that moment.

I will seek out what God has for me in this moment of my life.

The last 6 months have totally rocked my world.

I feel like I am on the upswing, but there is still much processing, seeking, and understanding to do.

I am beginning to understand the work that God is doing in me in some areas, and in others, I am questioning why I am still struggling as I am.

There have been so many things about this season that have been refining and defining.

I have learned who I can really trust, I have learned who really loves me, and painfully, I have learned who doesn't.

I have determined to surround myself with people who are for me. I am learning to fill my life with activities that bring me life and joy. I am realizing that my primary ministry is to my family. I am thrilled that as a family we have embraced God's calling for us in Swaziland(more about that one later).

The puzzle pieces are coming together.

The fuzzy picture is becoming clearer and clearer.

God has brought about this season in our family for a reason.

It is not up to me to make it happen or control it.

I am trusting in God to accomplish His will in my life as only He can.

Hotel Escape, here I come!!