Rick keeps telling me I need to start blogging again. It is a great record for our family to look back on and see the highlights and even the struggles that we have experienced. I like having our family's history recorded. There is just so much good in looking back and remembering. It gives us hope for the future and it preserves our family legacy.
Honestly, I have been very resistant to picking it back up for a number of reasons. First, my life has taken on a such a different feel in this stage of life. My "go time" has greatly shifted. With little ones I found my days began early in the morning and by 6:00 they were winding down. Now, once I can get everyone out the door for school, I have about 7 hours of time to do with as I please. I have struggled with managing that time well. I so want to be a good steward of it. I have been trying to learn to balance shopping/running errands, cleaning, cooking, and laundry, with some recharging time for me, as well as connecting with others. At 3:00, my real "work day" begins. From 3:00 - 10:00(sometimes even until midnight), is my new "go time" with the kids. The minute I pick them up from school, there are activities to drive them around to, dinner, homework, showers, etc. No longer are the evenings quiet. 3 of the kids decide their own bedtimes, and one works until 9:30-11:30 on some nights. All of that to say, I haven't fully figured out a new rhythm that works for me.
Second, teenagers don't like their business shared. I am always hearing, "Don't post that picture." "Don't blog about this." I feel like if I blogged, I would have to only share half of the story. It is not a true representation of what is going on. If there is anything I value, it is truth and not candy coating. I feel like if I blog appropriately for this stage of life, I will have to leave so much out.
Third, computer issues. Since our home burglary when our computers were stolen, we have had ongoing computer issues. Thankfully, we didn't lose everything because we did have a backup, but we lost some things and the computer we were blessed with is older, so that creates challenges. I am also sharing my computer with 5 children that regularly need it. This creates computer issues. It seems like every time I get it back from one of them, there is a new problem to resolve with it. If I am going to use it, it needs to be when they are at school.
It is only March and our life has had some pretty big turns this year so far. I want to share those things with the people I love. I also want to document them for my family. After "going dark" for the last year, I think I am ready to do this thing again. I feel so much more connected to my out-of-town family and friends when I do. So, I would love for you to join me again on this journey. I promise to be as honest and transparent as I can without compromising my kids' privacy. I will share my journey and how this life that God has given me plays itself out. Hopefully, it will help us connect along the way.
It may take a little time for me to fully get back into the swing of it, but I am going to give it a shot.